It is the most heartbreaking, nerve racking, amazing love ever! That’s how a friend describes a mother’s love. I’ve come to the conclusion that this is the perfect definition. Being a mom is tough. Having someone depend on you for their every need and want, feeling like a failure when you make a mistake. I’ve made my fair share in the last ten years.
I don’t consider myself a stepmom. I AM A MOM, my kids just happen to be born before I met them. I have helped raise three wonderful kids and they’ve grown into some pretty awesome young adults. It’s a great feeling of accomplishment, when you see that your children have become productive members of society. It’s even better when you realize how much they love and live for God.
All in all, I’d have to say I’ve succeeded in being a good mom. But that road to success was often paved with obstacles. Some I had to get over, others I had to go around and there were those that I just had to move aside. It wasn’t always easy. I’ve said things I didn’t mean. I’ve done things I shouldn’t have done. I’ve made my children angry, upset and unfortunately, I’ve made them feel unwanted at times. I’ve hurt them. I am not proud of the mistakes I’ve made, but I have learned from them. I’ve had to put on my big girl panties, face my kids and ask for forgiveness. Fortunately, I received it. How many parents know that they’ve made mistakes, but never even ask for forgiveness? Many think they don’t have to apologize for anything, but they’d be wrong. Trust me, I’ve been on both sides of the coin.
Being a mom is forever. No matter how old or how far away they are and even when they have kids of their own, they will always be my babies. I’m sure I will make mistakes in the future, but I pray they are few and far between. My kids know that I’m far from perfect and they love me in spite of it. I pray that God will help me be the mom that He wants me to be, the mom that He blessed and trusted with three lives. I’m so very thankful that God’s plan for my life far exceeded my own.